From time to time I put my thoughts down on the keys and they turn into words on my screen that can be shared with you. Today is one of those days. Often I am kept busy writing about a secretive people and their ways.
However today I was thinking about the importance of learning from your past mistakes as well as the things you did right.
Lately I have made a lot of mistakes when it has come to men, and it has been really a sad tale of terrible timing, and bad choices.
But being diagnosed as a Parasomniac has sort of made me reevaluate my life and what my goals are. Once upon a time I held a high standard for Men but lately it has slipped in the wake of my loneliness.
Yesterday my faith was restored that their are indeed good Men out in the world, and I now wear a necklace bought for me by an ex-boyfriend as a I reminder of what I deserve.
Now most people will think that I wear it to remind me that I deserve better than him, but in fact it is the opposite. I wear it to remind me that he is the benchmark, and men must treat me with at least the amount of respect and love he treated me with.
Yes unfortunately that relationship did not survive the ages, but it was a love that was pure and true. There were no games. I despise games, and recently I have been playing chess with Men.
That stops today.
I deserve a Man who is not afraid to be with me and enjoy my company, and he should be able to provide interesting conversation to me (not just be pretty).
I deserve a Man who has common interests to me, and thinks that what I like is cool and exciting.
I deserve a Man who won’t judge me for my weirdness, and will even be weird with me.
I deserve a Man who will challenge me and push me to be better.
I deserve a Man and one day I will find him, and it will be epic. It will be so epic that they will write a book about it and turn it into a Nicholas Sparks film. Cause those are tear jerkers :)
Now I am going back to writing my book. That maybe one day you will get to read. But for now internet, those are my thoughts. I hope you find an epic love, because they are amazing and I am currently waiting.